10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
It has been two years since the accident.
Boy. How fast and slow these two years have moved along. We've hit some major milestones and major setbacks. We've laughed so hard we've cried and also cried so hard that we literally went to the store for more tissues . We've gone from a hospital room with roomates, to an apartment where we shared a wall with a very sad hound dog, to a wonderful home with a bedroom bigger than Bunker (our 440 square ft home we lived in before the accident). We sold basically all our belongings and started fresh with an accessible vehicle, 6 different types of weehlchairs contraptions, and a puppy.
Truthfully, there are moments when we say we wouldn't take it back. The life lessons we've learned, the people we have met, the way the accident has changed our relationship and dependency on God sometimes feels completely worth it.
And then there are more instances when we desperately miss our before. We've had serious struggles (and talks) with the Lord over Derek's injury and all the tiny details that now go into our life. Brutal moments when we would both rather go back to June 14th, 2016 and freeze time..even if it means not experiencing all the ways God has grown and stretched us.
And that's OK.
It's OK to not always be OK.
But a line needs to be drawn at some point. There's a difference between playing the victim and processing. We all need to be careful in not letting our trials and circumstances give us an excuse to wallow.
We have come to a realization that paralysis will most likely be in our life for good.
There is no easy way to swallow that fact but we are certainly doing our best. Unforuntely, there hasn't been any new movement or regaining feeeling since the accident. Since there is no new progress, we have stopped attending physical therapy for two reasons:
1. No new movement means insurance won't cover it
2. Derek is doing incredibly well with the day to day tasks required of him
We want to encourage you all to not fear the unknown. Instead, embrace life, those around you, and focus on building community. Even though it sounds cliche', God will give you the strength to endure the next big "moment" in your life.
And sometimes friends, sometimes enduring is truly the only option at the time. Surviving is just one step closer to thriving.
Thank you all for being our cheerleaders these past two years. The love, encouragement, and prayers we have received mean the world to us and has helped this transition go as smoothly as possible.
Here's to Year 3!